A Rundown of What I was Up To

I haven’t been penning anything lately and it’s saddening rather it saddens me but inspiration has been avoiding me like the plague; or so I think. Though the whole time I’ve been out of touch, I’ve been quite successful with doing or choosing the right thing that is as I believe, I’ve realized that indeed, I wasn’t so bad at all. So, what was I up to?  Read on:

  • Getting in touch with my inner teacher. Yup, you read that right. I’ve been spending more time helping my mom with her college assignments that sometimes it makes me feel like I’m studying all over again or that I’m playing the teacher like when I was younger. It’s fun, though sometimes it could be painstaking specially if mom forgets the time difference and calls at 4:00am my time. Either way, it’s exciting and I realized that whatever gap we had from when I was younger is mostly water under the bridge now; it makes me feel good.
  • I started to be conscious about myself. By that I mean I started to make time to “workout” or “run/walk” or “do yoga” at least an hour a day at the very least. Well I owe most of it to my great friend Nelly who is an inspiration and a very awesome enabler. Yup, that’s her. I am planning to make a big leap soon, which is to challenge myself for something big, something I wouldn’t even ever imagine a few years back. I hope to get my act together for that to materialize.
  • Been out with friends. For a few hours that is because the danger of them disowning me is lurking about, it’s scary, really scary I sometimes dare not think but then again, it’s difficult to drag myself away from my screens, all three of them – laptop, phone and player. Balancing life is really difficult, I now realized it.
  • Try it, it’s good for you. I’ve been trying to learn how to swim, no results yet but I hope I get there, I wanna get there. I wanna learn how to swim.
  • Thank you for the music. Or more like thank you Kpop for helping me survive my daily life of boring business and endless phone calls and letter drafting for people that I might not even get to meet because I don’t want to otherwise known as I’ve completely embraced Kpop. Here’s my favorite playlist ever:

  • Bon appetite. Of course there’s some cooking going on still, mostly of dishes that I am not familiar with and deconstructing some of those dishes that I know of. It’s fun and calming. I only regret not being able to take more photos. I only have these two:

from scratch not ready made mix  my version of cold noodles

 

(Pancake is from scratch, not the ready made kind while the noodles is my version of cold noodles.)

 

  • Go ahead and watch. And of course, even if I don’t write about it, it is safe to assume that I have been watching dramas endlessly. During my stupor I’ve finished 4 series, that’s a record. Hopefully I’ll put my reviews up pretty soon *prays that inspiration doesn’t run away*

So.. Yeah. I therefore conclude that I have been hiding under a rock for the past month and I am now in the process of crawling out. I missed you all, chingudeul.

The Gnawing Reality vs. Hoped For

Or my way of rephrasing “thou shall not bite off more than you can chew.”

Mood Setter: Try by Nelly Furtado

Pretty cryptic title right, I know, believe me, I know; but it’s me and being me comes being cryptic, morbid, somehow bonkers or in short 30 mixes of crazy in one package – that’s me. Today came the realization that I am having a dream or I had a dream, at any rate the gist is there – I was dreaming. I am gonna go around in circles some more just because I can and as my brother always points out, I’m overly verbose most of the time if not always; what’s wrong with wordplay anyways, or playing with your words? I don’t see anything wrong with that but I can see something going wrong with me.

So back to the dream that I was having; a month or so ago, I sort of “dreamed” or wanted to be able to write something on a daily basis, yes “a daily basis” and that time, I really believed that I can. I was completely optimistic that I can manage, I could and I would but unfortunately, I didn’t and I can’t. There’s plenty of things that I could say to justify my failure but I won’t, I refuse to dwell on beyond 21 excuses that’s not gonna make changes and differences; I want to put it all behind me as quickly as possible and start anew or be realistic.

I’m dropping my initial “project” and am sticking to a somehow healthy and I believe achievable one. I would like to focus on what I really want to write at the moment rather than put down words that I can’t and don’t believe to be at par to what I would want to read over and over just so I could keep up with the “project.” Spontaneity, I’m thinking is a better way so maybe I’ll give in to the call of randomness and write more in the moment after all, it’s those moments that really count.

I decided that I wouldn’t be compromising quality to quantity and succumb to realism; versus what I hoped for. I do not want to bite off more than I can chew and end up choking on it anymore because that’s embarrassing and completely humiliating, well at least the literal biting off more that you can chew is; I know, I did it once a long time ago while having some beer argh, I still shudder whenever I recall that, the sinker is I was in front of a guy I’m completely trying to appear cute with. Oh the horror.

Right, so the decision; I’ve decided to post at least 2  K drama related post a week, yes at least two and if there’s anything random that’s worth posting, I’ll be posting any day. I’m still deciding which day of the week would be workable, I have to confirm if there would be changes at work but I know 2 K drama post is workable without completely pushing things, crossed fingers. Now I’ll breath and let that thought jump all over my head until it sinks in. “There you go buddy, you can give being guilty a rest” and yes that’s me giving myself a pep talk and somehow giving myself a much needed pat on the back.

Lights and After Dark Activity of a Nocturnal Person

Mood Setter: Drive by Incubus [audio http://marvin.ibeu.org.br/ibeudigital/images/1/13/Incubus_dudu.mp3]

If there is something that I find extremely funny, it is the fact that whenever I am at work, I feel so extremely sleepy but once I reach home, my eyes are so alert and wide open; ready for action. That’s always the case, every single day. Even if I manage to sleep early, I would still be so dang sleepy at work the next day. And yes, that’s one of the reason why I had to take work home during the crunch time, I’m glad those days are behind me.

One evening that I was feeling extremely awake and somehow high on coffee, one of my roommate asked if we could go visit the ghost town, that’s right, ghost town at 8 in the evening; it’s going to be fun! He needs it for his photography class so I said what the heck and just went with it. He wanted to take photos of a well-lighted building first and since there’s this hotel nearby, we decided to take that first, from different angles that is. By that I mean from all over the mini island, aren’t we just out of our heads? Yes, yes we are. I took some photos with my phone and tweaked it a bit:

 

As I lay in a bench nearby I noticed the moon and can’t help but take these:

 

Isn’t it lovely? It’s nice to go out every once in a while, take a deep breath, smell the sea maybe fall asleep for a bit under the moonlight. No? Okay. Sadly though, we weren’t able to go to the ghost town because my roommate finished taking the lights photos at almost 11 pm and honestly, that is very late and I’m not confident that I won’t be scared during that time anymore. I mean 8pm is okay but near midnight, no thank you. They were not up to it too anyways so we just went home and I go about doing my thing and drinking one of my favorite beverages on Earth:

 

I slept at about 3 am, woke up by 7:30 am, and writing this on my desk while trying to fight with my dropping eyes. I know I’ll be extremely awake once I reach home, this is a vicious cycle, my vicious cycle; a routine after dark activity of a nocturnal person.

Yay, I Can See!

And I am back and feeling much better. I’m finally seeing clearly again after a long time, no more headache too, this is such an awesome and sweet feeling. It hurts my pocket a bit but I don’t care, I need this. I had to take a short break from writing because I can’t manage the headache after work anymore and I can’t sneak blogging at work lately because the business is picking up its phase and there’s a lot going on so the absence. But now I’m feeling better all thanks to this:

 

I still can’t decide if the frame looks great on me but the lense is surely rocking, ah the clarity is so welcome, I haven’t seen clearly in a year in my old glasses thus I feel so overjoyed; yup, I am shallow like that. I’m gonna be catching up with everything now, there’s tons that I need to finish and I feel so great that I can finally focus and finish things without stopping halfway to nurse a headache. Also, I could get to really appreciate this, truly:

Now that is priceless, thus I refuse to drown on being broke for a top of the line or expensive eyeglasses, it’s worth every single cent.

Weekend Song Obsession: Titanium

And it’s my weekend again and like a usual weekend, I sort of devote today to house chores, rest and if possible, catch up with some of the dramas. Well I covered the chores and some of the rest but I can’t bring myself to watch some dramas because I am obsessing with this:

I’ve been playing this over and over in different version thanks to Soundcloud, I was even singing to it as I take my hour long bath. Sorry, that’s an overshare but either way, it does stress how forgone my obsession is and I have a feeling it’s gonna continue on until later. Oh well, let’s have a break from dramas then plus there’s no episode 14 of My Love From Another Star this week anyways.

Here’s another proof that I am currently obsessing with this song, surprisingly I had the guts to upload me singing it at soundcloud, you’re welcome to listen at your own risk. I won’t take responsibility for your bellyache if you laugh so hard because of it.

Anyways, Annyeong, I’m just passing by and while I’m at it, I would like to say Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

[As I Quote Tuesday] Those Stangers

“Except myself, everyone is a stranger. In the end, they become strangers. –Shin Joo-yeon, I Need Romance 3

Did it ever happen to you, being extremely close to a certain person then one day, all of a sudden you’re not seeing eye to eye anymore nor talking, and all the while you don’t have any idea what happened? Did that ever happened to you? It did to me and it took me a long time to get over that situation. It was one of those saddest moments in my life although now I get and understand what happened, and it’s not so bad anymore.

There’s plenty of lines worth quoting in I Need Romance 3, it has both wits and touch of reality though of course, you won’t completely believe most of the things that’s being portrayed could happen, some of it, yes, never in entirety. When I first heard what I quoted, I am reminded of those times, those times that I was estranged from a close friend back then who shall remain nameless to protect both of us, err, well mostly her or them, all I’m gonna say is it happened a long time ago, but the feeling I can recall quite clearly and even the look on her face also, to my disbelief.

Why the disbelief? Well because we were soooo close, I cook for her; I fix stuff for her and more. I was at her beck and call then one day, we fell apart because of something baseless and petty. I know I’m not without a fault, I should have been less straight forward it’s just that she knows me for being one that I don’t understand why she couldn’t overlook my sharp, stupid mouth that time. And yes I spoke more out of anger, because of the hurtful things that has been going around. In the end, there’s nothing that we could both do to even try fix what has been broken, plenty of people got involved and things was blown out of proportion. We ended up as strangers, being civil is not an option either.

Thus, I got my own flashback when I heard this lines, life is full of strangers, but that doesn’t mean you should be closing down your doors to get to know or be close to anybody, that’s as bad as being a estranged. No man, is an island; and even if I experienced being estranged from someone, it doesn’t mean that I won’t be going about the world and know people or at the most be close to them. We are all strangers yes, but it doesn’t mean there’s not a single connection to all of us.

At most I see and believe that life is a highway, a long road that at first you travel on your own but as you go, you meet travelers, some may walk with you for some time, some completely pass you by and some that might stay and walk with you until the end of the line. All of them are strangers, yet, you have that connection, you’re traveling the road called life.

LIEBSTER AWARD

This was surprising, and as I replied to Airlia’s comment, I am not expecting this; thus, it makes me overjoyed, thank you.

Now the purpose of the Liebster Award is to encourage writers of new blogs and explore more of this world of blogging. I started blogging (somewhat committed) last October 1, 2013 (well at least that’s when I first posted an entry) and so far, I’m having fun and still can’t get over the fact that people are actually reading my post; I’ll never ceased to be amazed. Then now, this nomination, wow; yes, that’s all I’ve got to say: WOW! This here is a huge encouragement to continue.

Right, with this nomination, I need to give out the same too. Here are the rules for the Liebster Award:

1. Each nominee link back the person who nominated them.

2. Answer 10 questions which are given to you by the nominator.

3. Nominate 10 other bloggers for this award who have less than 200 followers.

4. Create 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

5. Let the nominees know that they have been nominated by going to their blog and notifying them.

Okay, so the rules are listed now let me make my way to it. I would like to thank Airlia for the nomination, I really appreciate it.

Next, my answer to Airlia’s 10 questions:

1. What’s the story behind the name of your blog?

Ah, that. It’s not much a story as it’s me knowing myself well, somehow. I know that I am not gonna be able to write about a single thing in particular, mostly it’s going to be random, about anything and everything at the same time, thus the name: a mix of anything and everything.

2. If there was one mythical or fictional creature you’d get to keep as a pet, what would it be?

A Pygmy Puff, a purple colored one.

3. Tell us your quote of the day.

For my quote for today, read it here.

4. What’s your biggest dream?

To be a linguist; just kidding, although I do wish I was. My biggest dream is to be an awesome writer.

5. What’s your biggest fear?

Having no one who understands me, I mean not even one person; that’s scary.

6. Who is your favorite person in the world?

Hmmm, that would be my brother, Jan Michael.

7. If you get the chance to be a part of a different culture, which one it would be?

This is a vague question for me. Does it have something to do with ethnicity or something? But either way, I love being Asian, so if I was to be part of a different culture, I’d still want it to be Asian, at least from East or South East Asia.

8. If you were given the chance to travel the world, but not see or contact any family or friends during the trip. Would you go?

If it is beneficiary and if it is just a short trip then I would, those are the conditions well actually I am applying that now. I call my parents every two weeks because International Long Distance charges are expensive and they rarely put credits to use the internet so, not much of a choice.

9. You have a magical ability or a super power, what is it and why?

Mind reading – I blame I Hear Your Voice and Lee Jong-suk for that. Okay, seriously, it would be a good personality development means is all I am saying.

10.  You are writing your life story, what’s the first line?

She wandered fearlessly to the night, or so she thought.

Now, here are my nominees:

1. http://randomsoju.wordpress.com/

2. http://kdramadreamer.wordpress.com/

3. http://rarapop.wordpress.com/

4. http://thedramanoona.wordpress.com/

5. http://blogphilic.wordpress.com/

6. http://thedramacorner.wordpress.com/

7. http://ocdramadee.wordpress.com/

8. http://crazy9drama.wordpress.com/

9. http://mayms89.wordpress.com/

10. http://shukmeister.wordpress.com/

And my questions for them nominees:

1. What is your motivation to continue blogging?

2. What is your favorite blog post, one that you have written?

3. How do you spend a typical weekend?

4. What has been your biggest blogging challenge so far?

5. What is that moment in your life that you regret the most?

6. What are your favorite and least favorite drama clichés?

7. Do you post under your real name? Why or why not?

8. Who is your ultimate bias?

9. Are you a coffee or a tea addict?

10. What is your idea of a perfect drama?

Lastly, I need to notify my nominees. I do hope they have fun answering my questions.

Time, Never Enough

I never thought that day would come, that day when I’d finally say something in this context: my time is not enough. Shocking; even I can’t believe myself that I’m saying that but I do, and my time is definitely not enough. How did I realize it? It happened last Friday, which is my off day. It’s a whole day off, a WHOLE day but it felt like it passed by in a snap, alas, it was over before I knew it and I didn’t even get to do everything that I want to and I have this big plan in my head. Right so here’s what happened and what I was really planning on doing:

The original plan is to finish the house chores and then catch up on the dramas, I still have plenty of dramas that I have to watch, then there’s also those currently airing that I am up to date with. Simple right, it is simple, but it never happened although I did get to watch those currently airing dramas but I didn’t get to the marathon part. Why? Well, first there was the matter of cooking which is important and which is something unavoidable because I am not at home where my mother prepares the meals or if not her, it’s my father. Then there’s the laundry, again it is important and unavoidable and the same goes with cleaning and sweeping the floor, you know, the basic.

One more thing is I had a quite long conversation with my parents; they are visiting my aunt’s place because it’s the feast day of our town’s patron saint – Saint Anthony Abbot. My cousin lend her iPhone to them and I got to see two of my aunts from my father’s side of the family and a few cousins. I was a bit envious with all the food they’re consuming and of course because I wasn’t present again but things can’t be helped. After that conversation, I had a talk with my 2nd brother regarding budgeting and the latest things at home, how’s the situation; I love having him as a brother because I can worry less, I know he can take care of everything although of course the support is ever present.

By the time I finished my conversation with my bother it’s already evening, I prepared my lunch for the next day, took a bath and went insane for a bit and decided to move to the other room. Yes, in the last minute I decided to change rooms. A housemate of mine moved out because her husband came from the Philippines thus making the space she used to occupy empty. I’ve been thinking since she moved out if I should move to her space or what and in the end I did, and it took a lot of work. Until now, I still couldn’t believe that I was able to move those beds around on my own, yay Iron Girl! Well not really, my back still aches, I am definitely getting old.

Around 12am I finished moving and tidying up; everything was arrange as neatly and organized as I could and I was all exhausted. Even if I still want to watch at least an episode or something, I can’t really feel that happening so I cleaned up and went to bed because Saturday is already a working day and I hate being late to work. I fell asleep contemplating how time was too short, it was not enough.

Still, I’ll still try, things will work out somehow. Or I can always take a week or so of local leave if ever. Now that’s a thought, hmmm; might work though I’m not really sure. There’s too little time and there’s plenty of dramas, I now believe those words, completely, it is accurate and appropriate indeed.